Unfortunately, life is hard for everyone out there. Nobody is special or perfect in any way. Each one of us are facing troubles in life, and are susceptible to crumbling under pressure. It somehow reveals your vulnerable side, the side away from the cameras and the glamorous lifestyles. The inevitable shadow side that we all hide.
There are people who never give up and continue fighting their battles, and yet there are some people who chose to leave this world before their time. They were convinced that life had very little to look forward to and decided to put an end to their miseries. However, they did leave behind their last words, addressed to their loved ones, muses, friends and the world in notes, scribbles and letters, penned down in their last hours.
Some of the famous people around the world who chose to end their own lives. Let’s have a look at their last words;
1. Marilyn Monroe
Marilyn Monroe’s drug addiction had become severe, she used to spent weeks in the hospital for depression. Her colleagues described her as unprofessional. Her mood swings were unpredictable, and she was overdosing on barbiturates. Her makeup was applied while she was still asleep under the influence. Her films were gaining bad reviews.
Monroe died in her bedroom in 1962. A “probable suicide” was declared by the coroner. Three empty medicine bottles lay next to her bed. Her last words were, “Say goodbye to Pat, say goodbye to the president, and say goodbye to yourself, because you’re a nice guy.”
There was another note written to one of Monroe’s mentors: “I still am lost… everything is pulling against my concentration… My will is weak… I sound crazy, but I think I’m going crazy… I get before a camera and my concentration and everything… I’m trying to learn leaves me. Then I feel like I’m not existing in the human race at all.”
2. Adolf Hitler:
Hitler spent 40 hours inside a bunker with his newly wedded wife, Eva Braun. He then realized that there was no escape from the Red Army. He had also come to know of the fall of his friend, how he was cut into pieces and thrown into the gutter by the Italian Partisans.
Adolf Hitler, was too proud to let himself or his wife die in such disgrace and realizing imminent capture, he decided to end his and his wife’s lives. Without any sign of remorse for his deeds, Hitler prepared the last will that announced the decision of his ending his just wedded wife.
His laste words read:
“…I myself and my wife – in order to escape the disgrace of deposition or capitulation – choose death. It is our wish to be burnt immediately on the spot where I have carried out the greatest part of my daily work in the course of a twelve years’ service to my people.”
3. Kevin Carter
The man behind the lens of one of the most sepulchral photograph of the century, a Sudanese child, starved almost to death, crouching with her head buried in her tiny hands while a vulture awaits her death so that it could devour the corpse. A jarring image of poverty, destitute and famine, the photograph, fetched Carter the Pulitzer prize in 1994 but he had seen too much by that time.
He was such a charming gentlemen, that girls used to drool over him, and everybody wanted to hear what he had to say. Months later, he poisoned his body with carbon monoxide near a river he visited as a child.
His last words read:
“… sorry. The pain of life overrides the joy to the point that joy does not exist… depressed … without phone … money for rent … money for child support … money for debts … money!!! … I am haunted by the vivid memories of killings and corpses and anger and pain … of starving or wounded children, of trigger-happy madmen, often police, of killer executioners…”
4. Christine Chubbuck
Christine Chubbuck was an American news reporter who shot herself with a gun when she was on air presenting a live television broadcast. This may not have been ideally a part of the list of suicide notes had she not included the act as a part of the script. She had convinced the channel to make a show on suicides and she had also researched on various methods of committing suicide prior to the show.
On the day of the show, Chubbuck covered three national stories followed by shooting news from the previous day. Then, with a few words and a shrug of her shoulder, she drew out a revolver and shot herself behind the ear. The broadcast was faded to black but several viewers had already witnessed the incident by then.
Her last words on camera read:
“In keeping with Channel 40’s policy of bringing you the latest in ‘blood and guts’, and in living color, you are going to see another first attempted suicide.”
5. Jiah Khan
Jiah Khan was quite a promising actress who made her debut in Bollywood with Ram Gopal Verma’s “Nishabd” in 2007. Her career was moving just fine with two of her hit films, “Ghajini” and “Housefull” making it into the 100 Crore grosser Club. However, her relationship with Bollywood actor Sooraj Pancholi didn’t end well which prompted her to end her life.
Jiah Khan was found hanging from a ceiling fan at her residence in Mumbai in 2013. Four days after she committed suicide, a six page suicide letter was discovered by her sister which mentioned her plans to end her life and also a recent abortion.
Note to her lover, Sooraj Pancholi read: “..I don’t know why destiny brought us together. After all the pain, the rape, the abuse, the torture I have seen previously I didn’t deserve this.”
6. Kurt Cobain
Cobain, one of American grunge rock legends, Nirvana, found dead at his residence on April 8, 1994. According to the reports, 27 year old Kurt had blown his head off with a shotgun. Cobain was said to have suicidal tendencies long before he shot to fame and during the 1991 European tour of Nirvana, he also suffered from acute stomach pains regarding which he later accounted, “This heroin is the only thing that’s saving me from blowing my head off right now.”
Cobain’s death was a tragedy to millions of fans all over the world, many of whom still don’t believe it was a suicide.
His last words read:
“…I don’t have the passion anymore, and so remember, it’s better to burn out than to fade away.”
7. Virginia Woolf
It might be a little inhuman to consider a suicide note as a piece of literature but Virginia’ last note was no less than one. She was one of England’s most gifted author. Virginia Woolf was quite artistic in the way she died as well. On March 28, 1941, Woolf filled the pockets of her overcoat with stones and drowned herself in River Ouse.
Her body was found on April 18. She was 59 years old and the relapse of her clinical depression was too much for her to take this time. The beginning of the Second World War, the burning down of her house during the Blitz and the cold receptions to the biography that she had written for friend Roger Fry worsened her mental health.
Note to husband, Leonard read:
“Dearest, I feel certain that I am going mad again. I feel we can’t go through another of those terrible times. And I shan’t recover this time…. Everything has gone from me but the certainty of your goodness. I can’t go on spoiling your life any longer”